THE ONES YOU MISS MOST
I'M SITTING BACK AND SMOKING A BLUNT. I had some time to sit back and think on a lot of past experiences. I enjoy the many on many conversations I have had with people in real life, onine, and just people in general. Their make up pressed hard on relationships. I have always found one thing true. You never know a true answer until you are faced with the situation. Anything else is a guess. All things can be said about hypothesis until you get the result. The conclusion is the outome that we all are credited for whether by trial and error, or experiment. I have seen so many people relationships break up over experience and age than ever out of cheating. We all believe their is one true special someone for our lives but it is many still sitting home alone and dying by the day. The joy to enjoy life with someone you are with and not be another one as a notch on the belt. We present ourselves as the next best thing, but have we proved to those that we try not to imitate to be the same thing. The green not being greener on the other side. Why is it that we cant take no more to the point that we leave. The problems we measure as reason maybe as tainted as our excuses. How do we encounter or embrace others with a refusal not to embrace our individuality. The one special gift we all are brought with since the day of our birth. The presence of originality but also the wisdom of knowledge that cant be measured by a law because our prescense to change our faith is always present. No law can channel your day to day, but the pictures that left images on your mind as well as others give pattern. The same pattern that makes of shy to all of a sudden open and exposed. The pattern is amongst those we met. Our relationships are carried and geared upon the thesis of others. Our mistakes even logical still dispute the argument of bias. A bias without measure is a length that can be accounted for as importance. I guess we can all think about the relationships we have been in whether we left someone for someone else or the other left because of no compromise or resolve; Sadly we all share in norm of being common. We all left someone for someone else even if the intention may have not been direct at the time it occured. We convict others before we convict ourselves. We judge others before we have in our own capacity taken the stand. We blame as we dont want to take blame. We make excuses while making others our foundation. When is it in life do we start taking responsibility for our own actions within relationships. Whether a friend or friend/benefits, girlfriend/wife. We all have shared in taking those pronounds place at one time in our life or have been on the other end of our conquest. The 7 deadly sins have been compiled to give us a word but lack the necessity for definition and it itself sin to explain the amendments beyond a word. OUr own interpretation gives it credit but like credit it is open to fluctuate at the strategy of those doing follow up. Maybe we should check our own credit in relationships. Maybe we should draw thesis and chronological order to split ups, and it may answer Why others cant take anymore and the finger is normally pointed in your direction. To all ladies and gentlemen can relate. We all have friends that we can talk about certain subjects and others we rather not engage as they judge. It is plenty of you to this day that has a wild friend that you know if you needed to get something to discuss about your personal life that you can go to. They are basically our gate keepers. Also than you have your friends that are not as open as you are. Remember this each of your friends have the same dilemma. Each have their own they hang out with other than the ones that you are normally around. Most tend to have their old friends for once in a while and their new friends for steady and on going. We all need someone that we can just be you when around and not a carbon copy. We all remember riding around with someone that was a pure freak. The one thing in common they would always talk about their sexual episodes without concern for your ears. Always smiling and going over deep details into the play by play of their next game. We all in the back of our mind imagie ourselves in the same situations. Not knowing how your day was going to go but enjoying the fact its different. It is the reason why they smile and enjoy bringing their life to you. You may sit back and say you cant believe they did that, but you can imagine who left you because they was able to do all that. Al that you hate and find out you eventually loved. Someone comes into your life getting you to do things you never thought imaginable but maybe all a long you wanted those things but the person that was before in your life never took the opportunity to try. This person that questions all your morals gives you excitement and Addiction A addiction so hard that it makes you act without thinking. Not all relationships was meant to be. Maybe instead of dogging your ex or the person that you had enjoable times with before the dispute. Maybe you should call them and thank them. Forgive them and forgive yourself as you have taken on new life. A life that moves closer and closer to gaining all that you want instead of giving time to what you dont want. Each and every experience that you live through is a gift. The knowledge of awareness and the potential to answer the qustions of priority when it comes down to you as a person and as you and your next relationship. We all believe whether right or wrong we are right. It may be true but ou are just as wrong if you do what you do out of envy and jealousy but still have strong feelings for the one that you concentrate on. As much as you against outweighs the good in yourself. Yourself is a entity with purpose no matter who what why the circumstance. Your light may seem deem but it can only shine. Move on and thank your past for all it has done to make you productive and more in touch with your needs and wants. Their are always good times and remember those. It is well spoken for other than being a self suicide. Hard work and dedication is invaluable. Too many easily quit, but wont quit for those that refuse it to happen. We have all dated someone who we left for someone who we allowed. Remeber in school when you use to get clowned for eating PUSSYor the girl would for sucking dick. Years later you laugh about that DICK. We all been on a double date as we wathed the other couple get steamy to the point you and your date start watching. You than first find out that you are ok with watching. Maybe the other person is. You left someone for the same reason while with someone else. Maybe you may have left someone that made love to much but couldnt fuck. You may have left someone that fucked you hard, for someone, who didnt. We may have walked in on a friend having sex, but the friend offer you to join. You might have never walked in but how would you feel being in that situation. The real answer and not the generic. How abotu that friend that is having sex asks surprise or keep going. You know why because they want you to watch. Do you walk out the door or do you stay. How about ladies when one who you are seeing and the other friend begins to you. Do you back off or do you allow it to go further. Would you have allowed it if brought to your attention ahead of time. Lets just for instance say you said no the person you was with but with the other person allowed it to happen. Most wold be with the same person today if it wasnt for all that they couldnt do instead of what they could do. Or maybe it is the other person fault because they did the same thing in reverse You lost someone for something you would eventually do. How about your woman wants another woman. You leave her but than allow the next woman to have another woman. Do you think about at that time how you left someone for someone else that allowed you to. I ask all those to sit back and examine the nos and how many became a eentual yes. Does it make you think about all those that you said no to, and why you said yes to this individual. You know why because more than likely at that time frame they left you because of someone that did. Now later in life you both think back. You both did what you thought you couldnt do with someone else. You find out how dumb it was to leave each other in the first place. The one thing agreed is that whoever else that you met got you to do something the other couldnt. Maybe we all should be real open and honest with ourselves at some point in our life. We all have! Remember nobody can judge you. Be the real you no matter what. Where one is weak than the other needs to be strong whether it hurts or not. The other should be said at those departments that does not favor you. Build each other up and not break down. It is the same as taken aware everything from someone and thinking it would be the end of their life and than you find out later that they have everything and more no matter how far you tried to go. I suggest to all. Do not let someone success story be at your expense compared to being at theirs. We all have the ability to see others happy and be a helping hand and maybe we all should take the ability to do it all for ourselves. I'm telling everyone whether in or out of a relationship to enjoy life. Your tears will not bring change. You yourself can bring that change. This blog is out to all those that I miss. We miss all those that we never could step up to the plate to face. Maybe with this next swing. You knock it out the park.
